Approaching 30 and Letting Go
In 9 days I will be turning 30. Last year I had my golden birthday (turning 29 on the 29th) and I remember growing up feeling like that day would never come, yet here I am! Past my golden birthday, and about to enter into my next decade of life. I want to be real and honest with you all...I have been approaching my 30th birthday with mixed emotions. It's not that I am afraid of turning 30 or that I think it is "old" in any way. Rather it is letting go of all of the expectations and the picture of what I felt like my life would look like at 30 that has been causing an inner struggle. With my recent career change I feel like I have a new lease on life, and am excited about all of the amazing changes and possibility. I also have times of comparison, self doubt, fear. Why didn't I realize this sooner? Am I doing the right thing? Is this where I should be?
I never would have pictured that I would have left a career in medicine, be living apart from my husband, or starting over again. Life is never how you plan it and there is raw beauty in that. I am working on letting go of the things that do not serve me: the "shoulds," the comparison, and instead allowing myself to embrace life with all of the excitement and uncertainty that it holds.
Let's be brave, own our stories, and greet each Birthday with open arms. Big hugs 30... I'm ready to meet you.